Our friend, Marilyn, has died. We studied Spanish together and were Eucharistic Visitors at the same time. Most intimately we talked at Kaiser during infusions (her’s and Rob’s). I visited Thursday morning when we sat for a while, breathing together. Life support was removed later that day.
I have been sad while waiting and am feeling more peaceful knowing she has passed on to Glory.
When I got here after seven o’clock last night, I was just in time for a swim in the warm outdoor heated pool (no stars though as it was drizzling). Now I am drying my suit in front of the heater.
Also, this luxury (and haunted) hotel did not provide a table for my GIANT breakfast. So I chose to use the ironing board. Sweet server Amanda said she’d never seen that done before.
Next, I called to ask if I could possibly get a to-go box, because I’ve decided to live these days by the mantra, “Ask for what you need/want, of God and everybody else too.” Plus, I wanted to hear Amanda call me “Love” again in her lilting Arkansas accent.
Know this: There are answers to prayers everywhere, Love.
It is the 12th Day of Christmas and the sun is barreling in on me here at the beach house. Ideally I will mail the rest of our cards today in my attempt to prop up USPS, one of my favorite parts of our federal government which of course, is on life support. I know this is not the best way to care for our environment but, hey, I am old. It is a privilege to be able to afford the increasing expense. And I love seeing your names/faces still coming amazingly to my front door in hard-copy communication. I prop your holiday cards up around the house and notice that I think more fondly and often about you. I hope this happens from you to me in return. I believe this is the net of prayer.
Speaking of prayer, I am also fortunate to join in Morning Prayer every weekday morning at 730 Pacific on Zoom. We follow the Book of Common Prayer (for which there is an app). We assign readings and visit beforehand each morning and stay late to chat on Thursdays. We have agreed that if someone is muted or invisible, we won’t ask them to read, because in my case this usually means I am still in bed using earbuds so I don’t disturb Rob, sleeping beside me. Or maybe he has an early infusion at Kaiser and I am listening in.
Or just maybe (and this is unusual), I have the remaining cards spread out before me and am enjoying this love task of connecting wide-and-far even more than ever as I meditate.
Please know you are welcome to join us in prayer any time.